DRAFT: Having subscribers is a pain in the ass.

THIS POST IS A DRAFT. IT’S IN THE WTF DRAFTS NEWSLETTER. SOMEDAY IT MAY BE FINISHED AND DISAPPEAR.

As I wrote or will have written in this post:

I’ve been screwing around with this blog/substack/whatever for nearly ten years, never looking to increase readership. Only recently added an occasional

in a half-hearted way because subscribers are cool, but having subscribers is a pain in the ass.

Why is it a pain in the ass? Because of the ego. The fucking ego. My ego and the ego I imagine that you have.

Why write?

Right now, I’ve got 31 subscribers.

Back on July 26, when I wrote a post called “Who Cares,” I had 21.

70 Years Old. WTF!Who cares?I wrote zero blog posts in January. Zero in February. Five in March. Yay! But zero in April. Zero in May. Zero in June. It’s July 26th. Zero so far. No one cares. Check that. I care. But not enough. Or maybe there’s something else going on. Counterproductive beliefs…Read more4 years ago · 4 likes · 9 comments · Michael Wolf

Some of them care. They posted comments saying so.

Some of them liked my posts. Some told friends about them.

And that has been a problem because of the ego. The fucking ego.

On August 25, I wrote a post which (in part) honored one of my subscribers, the very talented moviewise.

70 Years Old. WTF!”Mike’s life:” a moviewise-style series reviewINTERIOR MIKE’S OFFICE NIGHT MIKE, a nearly 80 year-old man sits in front of his Apple Macbook Air, typing. The POV is where his head would be. As he types the camera moves from the screen to the keyboard, to the room around him and back. Occasionaly he pauses and the plane of focus changes from the screen to the reflection of his head and the room behin…Read more4 years ago · 2 likes · 3 comments · Michael Wolf

It was such a pain in the ass that I started this post and didn’t finish it. It was a draft, and I decided to publish my drafts. I think I published two. I published this one in 2022.

I’m finally (Feb 2025) willing to have subscribers. And I’m taking this out of draft category.